Author Note: This article is part of a collection from the previously lost Bordering Bears website, and has thus been re-uploaded and archived.
With my BPD I have often found it far too easy to lose motivation in things. Whether this is education-based, work-based, in the home, or even with goals or hobbies that I set myself.
Ash came up with a great idea this morning to boost my morale. Why not copy all my educational achievements and CPD (Continued Professional Development) and put them on the wall? So I have. I didn’t include GCSE or A Level (you’ll see why soon).
Yes, the CPD ones are more likely outdated now, but these are all things I achieved.
Part of my mental health normally revolves around putting myself down. Not good enough. Not slim enough. Not smart enough. Not pretty enough.
Now I simply have to look behind me when I’m writing to realise that actually in the last decade I have come so damn far.
So that’s one way I’m keeping my morale up right now. How else?
Well yesterday I discussed sweet snacks and, after having a whole slice, I absolutely LOVE my choccie cake.
The jelly was yummy too.
Great, I thought, I have everything I could want now.
So much nope.
Feena made herself some toast dripping with butter for lunch and I nearly cried as I ate half an avocado and a handful of raspberries.
I. WANT. BREADDDDD!
My sulk lasted all of an hour before I caved.
Or did I?
Feena watched me work and piped up with a poorly timed “Mama what shall I do?”
Oh you poor child.
The demon sat across from her (aka me) managed to growl out “FIND…. BREAD…”
When she was done laughing at me, she hopped onto her laptop and started looking for me.
And she did. I had to alter the recipe a tad due to what we had in but the little beauty found me one. I’ll post the recipe further down. It DOES taste more like an omelette crossed with bread but I’m not complaining!
After I made it, Feena dutifully returned to her laptop to source some more yummy food for me. She’s found recipes for Keto choc chip cookies, lasange and pizza.
I am SO lucky 😀
Things like this help with my mental state because they show me so many positives. Not only does it ALLOW me things, rather than always being negative or “NO”, which never sits well with me, but it also shows me another achievement.
The greatest of all my achievements is most definitely her.
She spent time today being so helpful. Doing the dishes so I could work. Looking for recipes so I didn’t have to do it later. Spending time with me while I get on.
Yes, we argue. A lot. That’s kind of normal.
But when I need her she steps up.
That level of empathy, kindness and compassion shows the person she is becoming. I’m proud of her.
Meaning that when my mind starts telling me I’m an awful mother I need to remember that any pride I have for her comes from how she’s being brought up.
It’s a cycle.
I have so much to be grateful for, and so much to boost morale.
I wanted to share this with others because I KNOW what it’s like to feel like you’re nothing. I know how it is to see everyone around you seemingly doing so well, especially on social media, and feeling like you don’t compare because they did something by X age and you haven’t, or they seem to have money or a house etc. To feel so bitter because why do THEY have it?
I know that some people will feel this bitterness towards what I have too.
So this post goes out to EVERYONE, not just those with mental illness, to think about you, what you’ve done, how far you’ve come. Sod everyone else. The only person’s accolades you should truly be focusing on are your own, because you ARE capable, and at the same time you don’t know what another person’s struggles are or what they went through.
Be kind to others, yes. But always, ALWAYS, remember to show yourself kindness too!
Now, onto the weird Mini-Bread recipe.
Keto Mug Mini-Bread
Ingredients for 2 servings
- 1 egg
- 1 tbsp unsweetened almond milk
- 1 tbsp extra virgin olive oil
- 2 tbsp ground almonds
- 1/4 tsp baking soda
- Pinch of salt
- Get a big mug
- Put all the ingredients in
- Microwave for about 2 minutes (based on 900 watts)
- Tip out of mug
- Slice your mug omelette/bread
- Pop half in cling film in the fridge
- Cut the other half into slices
- Fry on high heat in a frying pan until both sides have browned to your liking.
- Butter and enjoy!
- Serving size: 1/2 a “loaf”
- Calories: 134
- Fat: 15g
- Carbohydrates: 1.4g
- Protein: 5g
Let me know what you think of this recipe, or if you have any other tips for either me or other readers, and remember to subscribe!